Heartbroken today...

Have you ever unintentionally hurt someone before? Hurt their feelings by unknowingly saying something that you meant no harm by but was taken in a totally different manner? That's what happened to me.

Let me back up a little. Have you ever Text, IM or emailed and the words taken the wrong way? Written words are forever. You can not recall them. Can not erase them. Can not deny them. But most importantly, you can not tell a persons intentions via the Internet. You can not tell the tone of voice it is implied, the facial expressions being used, the LOL or OMG of it.

What was said was meant harmless by me, but read differently by another person. So who is really to blame? And why do I feel so bad? When I didn't mean it that way.

That person gave me a piece of their mind about it, and although I rebutted, I have not heard back from this person. Thus I feel even worse. I try to equate it to age difference. Young and inexperienced in Life lessons, to perhaps my more mature frame of mind??? But when it comes down to it, someone was hurt by what I said. And I feel terrible. Not because I am guilty of malicious doing, but because it affected this person greatly and I have now come to the conclusion that some things or some areas of topics should never be discussed.

Today I put myself in this person's shoes. I reflected a lot. And I suppose, being where this person is, feeling about life like this person is, that I probably would have taken it the same way. In fact, I probably would have stewed and been pissed. But I also know I would never have said anything to that person. So it is admirable for this person to confront me so we can clear the air and move on.

But it doesn't make me feel any better. Some lessons need to be learned the hard way. And even at my age, there are still many lessons to live and learn.

*sigh*
XOXO

Happy Friday Quote...

"Be mindful what you toss away, be careful of who you push away, and think hard before walking away. Sometimes when you hold out for everything, you walk away with nothing. It only hurts when you start pretending it doesn’t."

Hmmm...There's a lesson in there. One I've learned before. But I've also learned that walking away with nothing is better then being hurt by someone.

What do you think?
XOXO

Happy Friday Quotes...

I know, I know...it's been awhile. I kinda got away from my famous quotes you all love. First, I got a little tired of them, ran out of time to pre-do them, and life just got busy.

But yesterday I saw this one someone posted on Facebook, so I had to steal it to post here. Because it's so poignant. I'd love for you to elaborate for me what it means to you. How you took it? How does it strike you?

"We are often so caught up in our destination that we forget to appreciate the journey."

I feel like the last year as been one big journey for me and my family. And honestly, we have been so focused on reaching the destination to end this ride we have been on, that the journey was lost. And maybe, just maybe, that's where the lesson to be learned was...

XOXO

Minor Surgery x2...

So we like to keep it in the family. Yep, whatever one does, the rest get to do??? No? Oh...ok then.

Yesterday my son went in for surgery that was another "routine" procedure and this time came out just fine!!! No problems like last time. Remember back in July when they collapsed both his lungs after the surgery and he was in ICU for 3 days? Yea, so a little nervous. But it all turned out ok!

Today on the other hand, I went in for a surgical procedure on my lip. I had these two "freckles" that grew all of a sudden on the bottom lip and they were getting bigger and turning into one big one. Dr. said it was not skin cancer, but sun spots. Harmless they were, but I got tired of people asking me what was wrong with my lip. You could see them through my lipstick. So I decided to get them removed.

I'll show some pics (their a little blurry as I took them myself and close up) but it's not for the squeamish. So be warned:

This one I am holding my lips normal.This one I am pushing the bottom lip out so you can see it better, but it really looks the same as the top one. Ha!

So he injected it full of anesthesia and antibiotic, and then took a knife and cut them out and sent them to lab. Then took a cauterizing tool that was actually grounded to me by a patch I had to wear (weird) and literally BURNED my lips to stop the bleeding. And let me tell you, they bled. He made me close my eyes, but I could feel it running down. And the smoke coming up from it. He kept saying "now don't worry, your gonna hear this buzzing noise, but it wont hurt". Yea, he should have said "your gonna smell your skin burning off and it's a smell you'll never forget, but don't worry" cause man, it smelled!

The Anesthesia is wearing off and it HURTS now, so i took some Tylenol and going to bed. I can feel it burning. And my lips are really dried out because the inside of my lip is sticking out because of the fluid in there, and so between the burn area drying and cracking, and the trauma, it hurts.

*wahhh*

There, I feel better.

Good Night all.

XOXO

Sunsets and Mountains...

I think most definitely Arizona has the most Beautiful Sunsets I have ever seen. So many colors and shapes to them. Absolutely breathtaking. We saw one that had Purple, Orange, Pink, Yellow and Blue in it, but I was driving and couldn't get a picture. Well, actually I tried...but Hubby screamed "Don't you dare" when I tried pulling the camera out of my purse while juggling the steering wheel and aiming for the sky.

There was this huge Mountain next to our hotel. And we were smack dab in an Indian Reservation area. It was like a mere 2 miles from us. The whole casino, reservation, housing, basically the whole kit and caboodle. But we never made it there.

So back to this mountain...our first day Hubby says to me "doesn't it seem like that mountain is staring at us?"

So I look thinking in my head "man, he's nuts" and low and behold it DID look like there was a face looking at us.

Then Hubby says "I think someone carved it. It's an Indian Chief. Can you see the Headdress?"So I look again and gosh darn, he's right. So I tried to grab some pics of it at different times of the day to see if they would come out. Can you tell?

Do you see it? (I'll give you hint, he's looking to the left)Look Close...

What do you think?

And last but not least...another beautiful sunset...courtesy of Arizona.
XOXO

Can you say "Ouch?"

Do you see these things????

These things are the needles (a.k.a. Thorns, Spikes, Nails, Splinter, or Swords) that grow on Cacti. Now take a really close look....come on...get really close...Those things...are EVERYWHERE on the ground. But you can't see them. They blend into the dirt, hide under grass, rocks cover them, parking lots mask them.

But guess what??? There's one GUARANTEED thing that will find them! Can you guess what it is? Oh come on, play my little game with me...

SHOES will find them. Yep, bottoms of any type of shoe will find these puppies and carry them with you for miles, even hours. And their sneaky little boogers too. They wait, until the timing and condition is just right. They know. They know things. They know places. They know CARPET!

Yep, came back from the desert and walked into our hotel room. Kicked off my shoes (had my slip on ballet style flats and barefoot) and walked to the desk.

OUCH!!!!!

What the Holy, Mother of Peace, begeeziz was that???

It's still stuck in the bottom of my foot if anyone cares to see it.

So Hubby looks on the floor and sees a needle. "Hhhmmm...he says."

Hubby checks my shoes and says "oh Honey..."

Then Hubby sits down and checks his tennies...and says "OMG, Check this out"

Both our shoes were covered in Needles, thorns, spikes, whatever you wanna call them they felt like swords to me!

So Hubby says..."Hhmm..."

And Hubby gets down on the floor again and checks the carpet where we had walked...and says "uh...honey..."

In his palm were about 50 of those little son of a biscuit needles that fell from our shoes and were HIDDEN in the carpet just waiting prey!

So I threw my flip flops on and refused to go barefoot in the room the rest of the trip. Luckily...it was our last day.

*sigh*

XOXO

P.S. Happy Birthday DH, I love you lots and lots!!!

What a cute couple...

Bet you were thinking I only took pictures of Cactus on our trip???

DH in hotel room playing with GPS looking for a place to eat dinner...

Nope...I snuck one in here and there of DH and I. He hates having his picture taken. So I usually have to pretend to be aiming at something else and swing it to get him, or wait until he's not looking at wait for him to turn his head to me and snap it.

Sitting outside waiting for our room to be cleaned so we could go back to bed. Were up at 3:30am and this was only 11am...

*sigh* he makes it so hard for me...

DH was mad at me that I yelled at the front desk for the maid not cleaning our room when we were just going to crawl back into bed...its the point, honey...besides we needed new towels.
Ok, seriously, his hands are in his jean pockets, but in this pic, it looks pretty strange...LOL

Do you like the "stand behind the cactus so I don't appear wider then the cactus" look?
Where's Waldo?

Awww...there's that cute couple!

I bet you can't see me...

This cactus actually grew bark at the base and was turning into a tree like material and DH was fascinated!

XOXO

We're Back!!!

Did you miss me? I missed you all. We made it back (barely, but that's another story) and while there we saw some beautiful sights.

We were smack dab in the middle of the desert in Arizona. The weather was beautiful at 75 degrees everyday!!! And I have to say the most beautiful Sunsets I have ever seen.

But I pose one question to you...do you have any idea how many different cactus there are in the desert? Because I did not. I thought maybe 2? 3? I mean the basic one you always see in the movies, books or TV. And did you know Cactus have flowers? They have seasons and flower during some of them.

So I grabbed my camera, and on a day when we had a few hours to ourselves, we snuck out to a National Park (which basically was the exact same desert we drove past but we paid $6 to park and see it) and grabbed some pictures to share with you all.

Our trip started off a little shaky, and everywhere we drove there are Cactus. They are seriously EVERYWHERE and they were all FLIPPING ME OFF!! I am serious...just look:

Tell me that doesn't look like a hand saying your screwed! Turn around and go home! LOL
Now this is the one you see in movies (flipping me off)...

What in the world is this ugly mess?

This one we called a Thumb or Finger, can you tell why?

This thing? Tiny, but deadly...I'm just sayin...
I think someone was ovulating...DH of course said they looked like something else...hmmm..
And then there are plain straight ones that kept swaying in the wind and freaking me out they were gonna fall on us...
Don't these look like Ping Pong Paddles???
Ping Pong Paddles in Purple...whew...say that 3 times fast!
Tall , Skinny ones...
These were my favorite...
This thing is just U.G.L.Y!
That's just gonna hurt...
Look at that incredible Sunset in the background...forget the cactus!
And last but not least...DH and I laughed for 10 minutes over this one...can you guess why?

Ok...Enough Cactus for now. I don't want to bore you. Is this thing on? You still here? Oh good...If I haven't scared you off yet, then come back tomorrow for MORE! Ha...

XOXO

what a week...

So I sit here at one of this countries best hospitals around, waiting for a 4 hour appointment to finish. And boy, am I exhausted. I am working on 3-4 hours of sleep a night and can not seem to catch up or get rested. I even catnap during the day when I can.

Friday night I got little sleep due to my brain running nonstop over all the things i needed to get done on Saturday before we flew out. I got to bed around midnight and woke at 7am doing laundry.

Saturday Night, we dropped the kids off with my parents who are keeping them for the week for us. We got home about 9:30pm, and nerves had us going. So we took the dog for a wintry, cold walk until 10:30pm. I finished some last minute packing and got to bed about 12:30. The Alarm sounded at 5am for us to get ready for the airport.

Sunday Night, we arrived at the hotel. We grabbed a bite to eat and tried to settle in for the night. But again nerves for the next day seemed to get the better of us and we did not get to sleep until midnight. I woke at 3:30AM sweating to death. We had only the room fan going, and apparently a warm spell decided to besiege this town while we are here. So i tried turning on the A/C but it would click off after 30 seconds. ugh...so now I have to REALLY wake up and figure this crappy thing out. Took a half hour but I got it on and back in bed. Again the alarm sounded at 5am for our 7am appt.

Monday night I was determined to get some sleep. My eyes have been burning from tiredness and Monday that tired headache hit me all day. I took an Excedrin PM and threatened DH to turn that TV down and was able to sleep by 10pm! But that Damn Alarm again sounded at 6am!

And Keep in mind we are in a different time zone then home. So 5am wake-up calls are really 4am my time!

So here I sit. Waiting in a waiting room. Staring at the humdrum of life bustling around me. And to top it off, this very highly regarded establishment we are at thinks it's a great relaxing environment has a piano player playing soft classical music with waterfalls throughout. Can I just say that Classical music and waterfalls do indeed relax a person? Can I just say that when a person is operating on about 20 hours short of sleep for the week, classical piano music and waterfalls is not a good idea! I am working very hard to not fall asleep sitting here, but catch my eyes closing and doing the infamous head nod! ugh...I think it's nap time after this...only 3+ more hours to go...

XOXO

The Eagle has Landed...

We made it to our destination! And wow - I am sooo not a desert person, but it's beautiful! I will post some pics next week, because silly me brought the camera, but not the USB cord!

OK - So here is my thought for the day:

What is your Favorite Scenery to look at?

I know some of you readers are ANTI-Snow, and others are beachy-Oceany fans. And some may be mountainous or Country fans.

Me? I am definitely a BEACH/OCEAN fan! Give me a lounge chair on a sandy beach and I will never bother you again...the sound of the water as it crashes into rocks or sandy beaches is so relaxing. I have been blessed to be raised next to an Ocean. It's a short car ride now (less then 2 hours) and I'm in heaven. When I use to live in Oregon, the Ocean was my backyard. But it's WAY TOO COLD to swim in Oregon. I want Warm ocean. Tropical is even better.

Excuse me now while I go dream...
XOXO

We're leaving on a Jet Plane...

So we are off to another state in search of Miracles. Should you know where we might find them, please let me know. Fingers crossed as well as toes and legs that we find the answers we so desperately need.

As we start off this New Year with new Hope and Dreams, I wish for you that all yours come true in this new beginning of a glorious year ahead.
XOXO